Questions in the comfort of our world

Why do circumstance and people always want to take away what one really wants? Why is the world bound by irrational beliefs? If we call our self modern and realistic and follow the liberal views of life why is there still space for superstitions, fate, societal pressures and conservative ideas that inflict with a lash decisions over an individuals "free will"? Is "follow your heart" is a saying constructed by society which actually implies the fact that a persons heart is governed by society again.

Is it difficult or impossible to live by ones own principles? If its difficult then why do people change their words and ways? If its impossible then why do people opt out of life? Is suicide an act of being coward? If so Why? If life is so precious, a privilege every individuals want to cherish why cant one opt out of it in difficulty and why are those who do dare to choose peace over a life of hell are termed as cowards? Why is life so important? If a person comes to this earth alone and leaves alone why are relationships so important? Doesn't everyone have to leave someday? What happens to a person after death? Are they reborn or does it go to the 3spheres of hell, purgatory and heaven or does it float in a vortex or does it linger around as a spiritual form on the surface of the earth free to its will? Is it happy or is it sad? Has the suffering ended or just begun? When we are so caught up with work, schedules, rights, duties, money, thoughts, society what would we do with time after death? Is there time after death? Even with this fear of the unknown why do people opt the "easier way out" is the decision actually easy or the circumstance so bad that has compelled the option? The questions can go on, but who takes heed?

best things in life come free...

Bangalore has never been this good before. After a whole year this place has a new meaning which of course included letting go of things, accepting a lot more and mostly being myself once again.

My excitement for socializing has taken a step further; I would rather say it’s a leap. The most interesting part is that I really like my new acquaintances! I can actually defy the saying "the first impression is the last" by saying time opens windows to a personality that maybe hidden. It's amazing how I can really talk to some of them, especially 'puppy oshan' about anything under the sun and its always been a good conversation. Today I truly hail the short messaging services.

And of course one can't sit at home within their four walls and "socialize" so lets put it this way iv been going to new places, if it’s the old place its with a new attitude. Even if its just a crazy fun ride to the graveyard and Mysore rd ccd, Green Valley Resort, karaoke night at opus, the same old college and Taika, a crazy chatty night with Roshan or a midnight "teen rupiya chai" on the footpath, it’s that positive energy that has made it good enough to be written in my books as memories of some of the most treasured days of my life. I must admit I've come to a point where life's simple and good that even being miles away from what I call home doesn’t bother me anymore. Yes I do miss my folks and who I call my 'chaddi buddies' out there.

The best part of this whole month has been the drives and rides after a pumped up night of crazy dancing. There's nothing better than riding with a bunch of friends, singing aloud as u stick your head out of the car window and feel the wind in your hair while cruising the empty roads as the city sleeps. Dancing like there is no tomorrow especially with those who enjoy dancing as much as you do gets you high on ecstasy without actually smoking up. Yes Pranav I do agree with you 'footpath buddies are the best buddies'.

One thing I've learnt and shall always bear in mind: You can truly enjoy life in the simplest way if u have the capacity to make it worthwhile, after all the best things in life (good memories) are free…

Nature at its Best

Have you ever faced a situation when you just want to make the most of the time u have at hand knowing its not going to last too long. Your stuck in a time frame where your want to live life to its best, is much like a dream of past events and that magic ball that gives you an insight to a fantasy world future. But when you wake up kaboom it that load of stereotypes of being a girl, those responsibilities, deadlines and routine life your just squished under. Like that doesn’t serve as enough of walls to claustrophobe you, your suppressed under company and dingy mood swings of those around you. You suffocate and just want to break through into the mountains or some scenic beauty living life far from the hustle and bustle enjoying life in the simplest way it can be.

So I let off and true to my impulsive nature travel with those of my kind who enjoy such break troughs. We headed to Chikmaglur about 6hours from Bangalore and I was awe struck right from the beginning! Traveling through mountains to our tree house at the Hoskonde estate about 1000 feet above sea level amidst trees and wildlife with a breathtaking view of the world in its primitive form of pure and innocent scenic beauty "nature at its best".

We lived in a tree house (built around I guess an oak tree) out of bamboo and thatched leaves for the roof, not those sophisticated ones driven by art and technology but those naturally simple the way its meant to be yet providing amenities of today. It wasn’t just a break but I actually educated myself while we went on a plantation walk into acres of the estate forest.

A moment I truly enjoyed and have captured in my mind is that when we were down at a lake surrounded on all sides by mountains that held a dense forest, drenched in rain that cooled the place. I stood there in the rain amidst sweet smelling fragrance of wet earth looking at the fishes in the lake, the vibrant and colorful birds flying by, the dark clouds that covered the mountain peaks and a silence that still echoed the sounds of nature. How peaceful that experience seemed to be. It was like one of those times u feel your mind body and soul are finally in tune with one another and the only thought that strikes your mind is how free you are.

But I must admit the scarily fun experience of a true adventure was when we were stuck in a tree house surrounded by acres of forest and wildlife with no signs of civilization. Up in the mountains in pitch darkness while nature showing us its harsh side of roaring thunder and lightening and a downpour of heavy monstrous rain that seeped though the thatched roof – all this without food, electricity and a temperature that froze us.

Its amazing how I was taken aback by how simple and beautiful surroundings can be and how naive we are to it, just rushing our energies in materialistic things, manipulating and judging situations and others and being judged ourselves on theories of a rich mans way of life that people have accepted and follow like blind mice. At the end of the day it doesn’t even matter you just one of them back to your routine flowing with the pace of people around you blindly accepting what's thrown at you.

Evalet (life)

Sapphire - my name, my identity. The idea of a change in name has not crossed my mind and I don’t think it ever will. My name for me is unique just as I believe myself to be, after all u won't find a sapphire around every corner!

As I walked around the city alone I observed more than the usual and realized I do have a mind of my own with thoughts and opinions that run at the speed of lightening and I ought to write it down.

About me well I'm impulsively crazy floating on some vague cloud of responsibility, I love to travel and do anything out of the ordinary to get out of a routine life. I love meeting new people, it's that fun of exploring new personalities and bumping into one of your own kind. I have a large social network but I generally like male company over females. I guess it’s the tomboy nature in me that enjoys a boys life more - the bike rides, relaxed rules and stereotypes, u know u can just enjoy beer while u watch a football match, or play cricket or basketball on the streets with any person, go on a trek in the mountains or simply walk in a mall with shorts, tee and slippers without feeling out of place these are just those few things you just cant do with your girlfriends unless they are a part of your kin.

My impulsive nature leads me to most of my actions and decisions, I kinda lack that patience element in me. I live for myself and like breaking free from the norms and stereotypes imposed by society and culture as long as I know I'm consciously and morally right. I dream of flying not bound by family, friends, a particular action, time or place. Life is too short to waste sleeping and there is much to explore in every aspect which needs to be captured and is a reason for my love of art or photography its interesting to see how something can be perceived in so many ways and its that ability to do so that makes a person an artist. I'm not creative I just look at the world differently in my way. My career options drive into paths of a graphic designer, animator, travel or fashion photographer n even a music video director for which im currently doing a course in communications studies at Mount Carmel College in Bangalore.

My policy in life – if u aren't living your life on the edge your wasting too much of space. Live each moment to the fullest, rules are meant to be broken who knows if u may see a tomorrow.